Hei.... How are you? Feeling good? Or bad? Haha. I just write this letter when i saw her standing in front of me with all her charming and perfections.
I still don't know, why? Why you come back? And then just walk away?
I know, you know that i always try my best to get over you, keep trying to moving on and just live my life. I can't tell you how much i try to get better since that day you leave me.
You leaving... Leaving me so... Easily? So... Fast? You'll never know how much it hurts.
Firstly, you was leaving me, and i let you go too cause i think it's the last way, the last step, i can do to make you feel more happy. Honestly, i can't let you go, i can't stop loving you i just can stop to showing it.
The first month, i think no problem. I'm okay but month for month gone.. And i'm still reaching. I always try to get over you 'till i know that... A little bit again i can move on! I can get over you!
But then... You across my sky again like a meteor, so fast. You make me blind with your shine. And then i fall apart in the same hole.
You come back, chatting me, saying all the cute stuff, make me fly so high and then you just leaving me in the air, i fall.... So hard.
Two days ago, you say you still love me with all the sweetest thing you do and said. And then fifth days later you hold her hand! Holding her hand with a big smile in your face, in her face and you both look so happy in the picture i see.
You don't know how much it hurt me. I don't understand what do you mean. You come and go so easily, never think that it so childish and coward.
For what you come just for a week and then you gone with the wind.
You'll never feel, never know, the pain, hurts, heartbreaks you give to me. You're too selfish.
Isn't that enough to see me like this? Do you happy seeing me like this? Hahaha.
I've always try to make you happy sweety... I always have the way to make you happy when you come back. Can't you see that i'm the one.. You're just too blind.
I see her. I know... She's perfect. The type of girl that you usually go out on a date with. She's thin, tall, sexy, pretty, charming, with white skin. She's perfect for your ego.. Hahaha
If you like, love, and with her now... I'm okay. However in the real is i'm not fine, i'm in pain.
You holding her hand... Make me so... Yeah... :")
You just wanna play with me, right? Wanna see me cry? See me broke? Haha you win. You're the win and always win.
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